Alas there is no going back to Vanilla...

Just for the heck of it I told Master, I wanted to try vanilla.

OMG that was the most boring session ever. There was no foreplay, just straight missionary... it was HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!

I am hooked on the D/s stuff. I don't think I will ever be able to go back to vanilla again. I may never be into the completely rough stuff, but I do like the spanking and the rough kisses.

I have read some blogs where the Master pee's on the slave or some other gross stuff like that, I find that really extremely gross, however to each his own. The other thing that freaks me out is the cutting of the slave and leaving a bloody mess. Luckily Master is not into that, he throws up at the site of blood and nearly passes out. There was this one time, where I was having surgery, Master came into the hospital room with me prior to me having the surgery, the Nurse put some stuff in my IV and Master nearly passed out from that.

So I guess there is no turning back from a D/s life style and I don't want to turn back. I am happy with the level we are at now and if in the future Master wants to bring something more to it I hope he will take it slow and let me adjust to it rather than spring it on me.

I do like the days of the week that he has certain things scheduled. BJ Tuesday is kind of fun, but shhh don't tell Master. I like that reaction it gets and most of the time it is fun for me too :) because Master is pleased and knowing that he really enjoys this and that after all these years he still finds me attractive and that he still wants me.